i hope i see you at man overboard….
i can only see you in my dreams.
and looked at the videos you did when you were with your band just to remind myself how cute you were
WOW IM PATHETIC.
hahahaha
until I get someone better than you
or until I stop comparing everyone to you.
I wish you never existed in my life.
thats not true though, I wish you were still in my life.
I think about how much i actually liked you
and then realize I’ll never have anything with you again.
trust me, I will always care, and thats what sucks.
take care.
i’m thinking about is all the possibilities and what ifs about you. then reality and my literal-ness knocks me down and I think i’m almost 18, nothing is going to happen with him, there are more people out there, he’s in the navy nothing will happen, blah blah. I have a whole new life a head of me, but then what if he is apart of it?
OVER THINKING TOO MUCH.
okay I need to take it one step at a fucking time. jesus.
